burried a co-volunteer yesterday went with the gf to the funeral service would not have recogonized him if his name wasent on the program i dont wana be viewed like that all dead and rotting put on display just cremate me and dump me in the trash.

had kinda of a fight with the gf this morning she asked "do you think we can be on the phone for the next 20 min while she walks the dogs?" it should not have pissed me off but it did dont know why we will burry that and call each other back in an hour or so and forget it all. not healthy but the relashinship is not healthy anyway.
BASTARD