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Wednesday, May 22, 2019

Back to blogging.

It’s been a long while but I think blogging is a better outlet for me.
Things are going good. So good my head keeps making up scenarios to blow it up. I love love love Princess and the dogs everything about my new life. I travel, I eat well. Hobson has enough projects to keep me busy. The boys are actually doing well.
I’m scared and still on the verge of crying every day.

Friday, January 05, 2018

It’s been almost 4 years.

Time is just going faster and faster it seems. I’ve slowed down a lot not having two women in my life took care of that. Yet i still miss her and my old life. Crazy isn’t it I knew I could not keep up the pace off it all and something would have to change. My I’m just longing for something I think I had never really did. I stayed pretty up during Christmas not such an easy thing to do for me. I think I’ll always be just a little bit??????? What crazy?

Rode the bike 🏍 today-4’f

I finally got the boys paying rent on a regular basis. Had to put the oldest on direct debit but he’s doing okay now. The younger boy has enough to pay us back right now but I’m not pushing cause I don’t need the cash and I think it makes him feel better sitting on a little cash.

4 years?

Thursday, November 30, 2017

When do children stop being stupid

I texted my oldest son meet me at lunch at my work between 11 and 12 how fucking hard is that? He was gonna be here at 12.
My younger son thinks he can live rent free and not do anything around the house where does he get that idea from?
I just want them to become the adults they are now.

Saturday, September 09, 2017


Even with all the things that have happened and loosing an old ski patrol friend in happy in my heart I still get down time to time there seems to be a lot of badness going on but I'm happy with my lot and happy with my Princess. 😁 There were times in my not so distant past that I never thought I could put up a happy face to myself. I still miss things and people from my life and get down a bit but overall I'm happy.

Wednesday, September 06, 2017

2ond son

Okay so his car blew the radiator and ruined the engine my wife found a vibe she liked and we got her that we got a loan for her a d a loan for him fuck I'm spending s lot O money on getting him lately.   Good credit is what made this all possible. Money can't buy happiness but lack of it just effin sucks. On the plus side the oldest son paid rent + utilities. It's only money and I'm still happy and proud of them both. They both need to realize one low paying job on on 30 hours a week ain't gonna cut it.
The basement is coming along I've got the ceiling painted and 1/2 t floor done.
Gotta get rid of stuff first I'm not moving the bedroom outfit and rocking chairs again.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Oh and son# 2 has a dog and 2 effing  cats. Wtf ! The kitchen is shaping  up though found the two burner hob. Now on to painting the ceiling.

Monday, August 21, 2017


had a colonoscopy the fasting and clean out was the worst part the procedure and recovery was fine.
Went to Mexico on vacation With another family it was good very nice very pretty. Will I ever go back? No not if I can help it not that every part wasn't good it was good. But every part of Mexico that I can seem has a little bit of crappieness to it. There are nicer places to go.

My younger son moved back home. I'm in the process of fixing up the basement for him. He is going to live there using a separate entrance and driveway. My new daughter in law and her mother are mad and sending bullshit my way about it. But tough shit if they don't like get the fuck outa my house.

FF a couple of days I get an apology from d I l and all is ok.?  I think she and mommy checked apartments and found out I'm giving them the only deal they can afford. I'll not forget anytime soon.

On the plus side I'm off overtime for the summer and I have a wonderful wife by my side

I still miss Patty though it still hits me hard during lunch driving home in the middle of the night it just hurts....