the secrete

watched a dvd about the secrete the other day. only thing i have ta do is think about it and it will happen. i keep thing about who gets the dog and they put it in a room and open the door and let the dog choose. i would cower in the back not come out not, choose that's what i am doing over and over and over the door is open and and and well choose one for fuck sake. wright or wrong.
i love them both
will my marriage survive if i loose the gf?
will the relationship i have with the gf survive if i leave the wife?
will i survive all of this
still thing offing myself is a better option the boys will miss me but they will get over it eventually.
INSANE BASTARD