in still here doing the same thing over and over and over. i cant seem to stop the insanity. the hollidays only make it worse i usta kinda like Christmas now its just stress from thanksgiving on till after the first of the year. I keep thinking about a sawed off shotgun its in the back of my head all the time. i keep telling myself go the the emergency room and tell them that and they will help nice people work at hospitals and like helping people. then the bastard part kicks in and says you deserive your misery and on and on and on
BASTARD