15 years sober

15 years ago today i was arrested for dui. i had a blood alcohol level of .41 roadside and was officially charged with a .38. i was kept in the drunk tank until after i saw a Dr at the jail cause i was so drunk. i came out of there defeated and down. i went through an outpatient rehab program went to AA for several years and have managed to remain alcohol free. I WANT TO CHANGE THAT TONIGHT AND DRINK AND DRINK AND DRINK AND PASS OUT IN MY GARAGE WITH ALL MY MOTORCYCLES RUNNING. INSANE SUICIDAL BASTARD