birthday

its the gf b day again givin her a dirty weekend still counting down to whwn i can off myself comming up soon i think. the thought makes my blood run cold. cold as death i see no other choise end it before im found out. when i see myself in the mirror i think how ugly i am ugly cheating insane bastard 10 days. think ill really do it? doughtfull but ya never know INSANE BASTARD can taste the vodka in the back of my mouth today. i think a cheep wine would work better though death death DEATH KILL KILL KILL FUCKING DO IT DUMBASSBASTARD