went to the gf last night stayed for the overtime tho wastnt going to loose money just to sit and listen to her sniffel and cough. made her one of her favorite dinners and we went to bed. I should know better than to sleep later in the evening cause i didnt sleep much last night. but sleep i did and went home bout 10 pm after stoping at the store for som cold preventative.

funny dident even think about buying booze till i was leaving the parking lot. I think about drinking all the time but i guess i must not really want to just wishing for the escape it would provide however false it would be.

I layed awake (next to the wife) and wandered just wht the fuck i am doing with my life.

BASTARD