urging for alcohaul

so i watching TV last night and an ad comes on for vodka don't remember what kind but it said it was just vodka in a bottle not fancy just vodka and it showed pictures of guys drinking it from rocks glasses over ice. i could taste it feel it going down my throat i starting salivating like a Pavlov dog. didn't go out a buy any and have not thought about it much since but i do know my mind is taking steps toward a relapse of epic proportions. at least when i do all of the wreckage that is my life will finally come crashing down as well and it will all be out in the open. as an added bonus for me to drink is to die so...

INSANE BASTARD