A long time ago

One of my old journeymen once said to me you’re gonna see a lot but you’ll never see as much as I’ve seen. I let it pass because he was an older guy and a drunk. He served in Vietnam so I’m sure he did see many things; through alcoholic haze. I’ve been sober going on 24 years I think I’ve seen many many different things and have had a much different experience than o’l Tommy may he Rest In Peace. I hope to see more things and love many many people including my beautiful Princess.

Panic attack

And now I’m sitting here having a panic attack I can hear my heart beating and I don’t think I’ll ever be normal again! Okay almost puked fuckin calm the fuck down asshole

6 years

It’s been 6 years since Patty’s death.
Didn’t cry yesterday but I think I just stuffed it down and kept busy. It showed and Princess asked but I said I was tired (truth) expecting waves today still only a little way away from a full on breakdown. Texted the boys told them I wa proud of them. Got a text from Cindy sending love. I know life will never be the same but I’m still struggling to find peace with the new normal.

I’m a 105k from my retirement goal of 1mil net worth.