im a bastard and i cant spell

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Feeling different

I once was laid off foe a little over 4 years. I took various jobs but one was a real job good pay benefits but during the interview process my late wife and children were visiting her parents. I was drinking very heavily .the whole time I worked there over a year I was in a fog living and going through the motions of husband father etc. I was just biding my time until I could get back to my permanent company and I did and lifer went on I was "home" back to the real company and job . Through it all felt like I was alone. My new marriage feels kind of the same. I'm alone just filling time until I can return to the real wife I married 26 years ago.

But she's not coming back,is she?

I need to embrace the new life I've begun . It helps that I think I really do love my Princess and she loves me. Clear the fog somehow and get busy living or get busy dying. Move quote I know but it kinda fits dint ya think?

Still insane

Monday, April 20, 2015

19 years sober yesterday

19 years sober as of yesterday . I have not gone to a meeting for a long time. Probably should.... But I won't . Didn't tell my new wife don't know why. Probably because she'll make a big deal out of it. Birthdays are old literally to me.just moving forward I guess.

The sex is still amazing it's only been 2 + months

Still kinda insane