im a bastard and i cant spell

Thursday, January 29, 2015

He's dead

I got the call Tuesday at 11am. Mt son called and said "grampa's not breathing" he did all the right stuff for him but dad body finally just gave up.
Now it's just a matter of arrangements . I'll miss him of course but he lived a long life went peacefully  and he was warm. I did everything I could to make his life as comfortable as possible .
Rest in peace dad, love you
Your son

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

One year today. Does anyone ever really move on?

It's been a year today
Going to the cemetery with my youngest he's 19 now but I don't want him to go alone.
I'm moving forward in my life. Doing what I can ,but is all just a front? Am I just scared to be alone? Is anything I say or do really real or am I really just an

Friday, January 09, 2015

Am I Still

Am I still getting married yes
Am I still a bad speller     Yes but auto correct helps a lot
Am I still suicidal             Yes

It will be a year soon still cry......but not as often.
I'm trying not to be such an insane bastard almost fucked up bad  while in fla. bs-my way through that.
Rode to work yesterday +4*f had the right gear the right tires the spare battery, good ride
Maybe I should get som pro help?
6 weeks until I get married
Am I still Still insane ?
Am I still still a bastard?