im a bastard and i cant spell

Monday, July 30, 2007

went t the gf after work on thursday t think we fucked right away but may have gon shopping for food. cant remember much about the hole thing we tried to ride bikes but got flat tyres both of us i fixed them and the weekend is just a catatonic stuper type blure lots of fucking and eating. I did kind of set her stove on fire i left the broiler on w the door closed and it set the mouse nest in her stove on fire. I took it apart and vacumed it all out. later on i had her on her knees vacuming topless and proceded to bang her doggy that was fun and different cus she always wants "to see my face" while i fuck her. finally was trying to make my escape on sunday night saying i was goin to an aa meeting when this old dude falls off his moped right infront of her house he reeked of beer was knocked out cold we called 911 and monitered his vitals and watched this knot on his head swell to about the size of a golf ball ems showed up and halled him away. got outa there after that and got "home" what the fuck is home anymore... just as the wife was bringing the kids home from camping with grandpa. Told/lyed to them all about my weekend trip, went t bed hugging the wife.
couldent sleep is it any wonder why
what the fuck is my life all about.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Im supost to be going on a charity bike ride for the weekend but, got up this morn kissed the little woman gdby and went t work. later i will spend the eve and the weekend with the gf im sure we willl do the usuall fuck suck and hang out. Ill let you know how it turns out.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

havnt posted for a while cus sam ol shit. fuck the gf fuck the wife lie lie lie as nausiem. this thursday i "go on my bike ride" 4 days n 3 nights with the gf. fuck me is such a bastard. I read in dear abby t day a bout a bloke that died and his late wife was still pissed bout his affares 3 years later.

y are bitches so stupid. the gf has t know im cheating on her. i dont call and come over late and hafta leave at certan times. I cant be that good of a lier. the wife might be just naive unough to not let herself believe what im doing. I give them both gushing i love you s and pamper them when i am around and i say all the loving things i can whenever i get the chance i miss you i want you you look pretty cook for them do jobes for them around the house give them money Not much mind you, kiss them masage them paint toenails etc etc etc...

Im numb inside anymore and want to kill myself. Not like eat a gun or crash my car, but worse start drinking again which would end in my death. only it would pull them all down with me.