know what really pisses me off. ive made dozens of trips to my dads house 3o miles round trip. my brother is making one 200 mile round trip to help this weekend and do thanksgiving and my dad says "make sure you give him money for gas" i will and all. but it just rankles dont it
INSANE BASTARD

just gota call from the realtor dads house needs just a few minor things done to get it sold paint replace a door "minor shit like that" well at least it will get sold afterall my brother is coming in to help move and houl things to storage. finally got tired of worring about hauiling it all and reserved a huge van and trailer to ger the job done.

took dad to the hospital on tuesday to get his dick reamed out so he can pee freely the surgan brought out pictures of his work to show me (no child should ever have to look at eht inside of his fathers bladder.

still keeping up with the same scharade with the wife anf girlfriend the one constant in my life
INSANITY
INSANE BASTARD

what to do Wednesday? have to fix som shit on dads motorhome get it ready to go to fla prolly fix dinner shower and fall into bed bout 8 i take sleeping pills now only one a night its generic benadrill but its the psudohypidrean that i need otherwise i toss and turn with my guilt all night long. gota do the nasty with the wife soon its been a while so i know shes ready wont take long never does anymore.
i keep thinking with my asthma i could catch the flu and die already know 2 people died of it lucky bastards.

INSANE BASTARD

i feel like forist gump around the gf anymore and the rest of the time im juat"acting normal" not sure whats real in my head anymore. lots of shades of gray no color it was like this while i was drinking a lot now its like that all the time dont really hav ean urge to drink but lack any disire to live
INSANE BASTARD