hangman noose

i tied a hangman noose today while under my stairway at work i fit it around my neck and as i pulled it tight i had a feeling of peace come over me like i have never had before.
obviasly i didnt pull it tight enough, but that feeling of peace was so nice knowing it could all be over in just a few minuits.
INSANE BASTARD

insanity

if insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results than im still an
INSANE BASTARD

suicide

every single day i think of a way to off myself. every day i lay in bed hating my self and not sleeping cause i didnt do it.
hate insanity
WHERE IS God IN ALL THIS? right where i left him right where i walked away. He is easy to find just turn around and hug him. His arms are open Jesus will forgive me.

i cant do it i cant forgive me so i walk toward drinking descruction and death.

INSANE BASTARD

wedding aniversary

22 years of wedded bliss. except for the exramarital affair i have been carrying on for the last 10 years. need to kill myself soon
LYING CHEATING INSANE BASTARD