orv vacation

took the boys camping along w dad took the quad my 31 year old dirt bike and frankinninja. rode a lot no injuries per say but did break a piston on the dirtbike.

called the gf a few times as well as the wife

INSANE BASTARD

vacation

takin dad and the boys camping this weekend long drive. taking the boys off roading.
goin to the gf tonight after work prolly do her

neighbor keeps flooding the road i keep digin it out

doin lots of shit i dont want to do lately dont know why

INSANE BASTARD

O yea my dad liked the porn freeky and akward but

did the gf last night she got a little o i couldent bust it out.

didnt help that i had did the wife just 4 hours before.

INSANE BASTARD

shaving

got to the gf house last sunday and lo and behold she shaved her puss ate it like a fat guy goin through a box o twinkies. still kinda gave me stubble burn and she said later that week it was all spotty and sore. least i didnt ask her to so i didnt get blamed. kinda liked it but it looks kinda wierd without hair. ate her again last night a little stubblie but she had a major O .
the wife keeps hers trimed real short and just shaves the sides. she doesnt really like me eating on it anyway.

guess im not getting raptured whatever that was anyway.

INSANE BASTARD

kids old men and porn

im at the time in my life that im trying to keep my kids from looking at porn on the cpmputer and hafta get my dad a new batch for his dvd player. im at the point with my gf that we ate too much last night to fuck.

got som more zip ties just in case

INSANE BASTARD

70 tv shows

been watching old 70s tv shows on hulu. seems to me the cars were much much bigger and the womens tits were much much smaller. just an obversation.
still think about offing myself every day

INSANE BASTARD

suicide thoughts again

they just fill my head its all i can think about today. why? i want to cry all the time. my head is like scrambled eggs undercooked at that.

INSANE BASTARD

porn for old man

cleaning up som equipment last night and the old man my dad says you know those tapes disks you got me with the new tv last year get me som more will ya. i got him som porn to play on his new dvd player when i took out his old vhs player so now i guess im his porn supply. kinda creepy but if it keeps him happy i guess ill stop by the porn store in the next town over and get him more.

creeped out INSANE BASTARD

ticks

so i go to the gf last night and we take her dogs for a wolk at the local college. she has a couple of ticks on her bare leggs and i brush them off no big deal right. on the way home het dig nuzzles me and i have a tick behind my ear we get home and i have a tick in my pants and she has one crawl out of her hair. her black dog has a swarm of them on her and the others have several. i help pick ticks for 1/2 hour of 45 min and just hada go. least i didnt f her. she said she was up most of the night with the creepy critters
i keep checking my self today so far so good
dentist appt after work today

INSANE BASTARD

weekend

didnt go gf on fri. was driving to co workers house to get a rototiller it kind of on the way to the gf house one turn away. the wife decides to come with me and shure enough i turn toward the gf house. i made a quick lie about there being a cycle store that direction and i turned around.
then i got to thinking if i had just kept going droped the wife off athe the gf house and split i could have really started something maybee for the good of all concerned.

instead i went to my co workers and got the rototiller took it "home" and did domestic stuff i guess cant really remember. o worked on the camp site for dads mhome with the youngest boy

saturday i went to my brothers and picked up my dad got him all set up and then went to the banquet with the gf tried to act normal told the wife it was an aa thing. usuall awards stuff and all bull shit got home late after fucking the gf.

Sunday went to church i dont know why. got home and took the wife to the get flower and veg store to put in her gardentilled and had the boys move dirt till it was all flat and ready. went to the gf house and fucked her again

REALLY HATE MYSELF
FUCKING INSANE BASTARD

colds

coughed u som brown goo yesterday morning this morning i didnt cough untill i got to work.
still takeing conjestion medison havent needed cough drops yet today

Gf naging me to go to Dr as usuall its just a cold im not going to die i could hope but ill pull through. goin to her house after overtime tonight.

did the wife last night when she got home i sat her down and rubbed her feet let her cook dinner so i wouldent give them all colds good meal sometimes she does well

canceling out on bike rideing with my other friend dont feel that good yet

goin to brothers to get dad this saturday.

banquet on sat night

putting in garden for mothers day borrowing co workers rototiller to help with the job

INSANE BASTARD

gettin over my cold

slowly stuff comming up is still cleat to light yellow so no broncitus... YET

gf had to teach last night so i went to my house and took it easy

picked up my youngest from drivers training i feel old guess it is at least a feeling?

I hate myself

INSANE BASTARD