25 years

the wife was at a retreat at church this weekend and it was also the 25 anniversary of our first date. it was a group date and i pulled almost all the people who went on it plus several others kids and all now to meet up and greet her at the end of it. we all went out to dinner and had dessert back at our house talking and reminessing. some of the couples we had not seen for years it was good to get together again. if only for a little while. all the usuall promeses of doing this more often were exchanged and the wife really had a good time.

then i called the gf and appoligized for standing her up in one of our regular date nights.

FUCKING INSANE BASTARD

vacation miles

rocked up over 4000 miles this summer taking the wife kids and gf on vacations this summer. at an estimated 50 miles per hour average thats 80 hours in the car driving holey fuck thats a lot of time n the the car aint it.
spent this last weekend my bday with the gf camping.  told the wife i was going with a group of riding buddies to spread ashes of a friend on a lake made up a bs story vagely plausable and i think she bought it. she found a b day card from my gf from a few years ago in my bag she either did not read the inside or is just ignoring it.  keeping the suicide strap close.

cant do it yet maybee down on the keys after i drop dad off in Fla.
FUCKING INSANE BASTARD

good weekend never stoped moveing kept thinking  i dont want to do this but then having a good time with every activity we did.

texted the other several times. wonder if im gona f___ her as well.
did the wife monday
did the gf    tuesday
prolly stroke off tonight
INSANE BASTARD