The creeping darkness

I’ve got a good life. A wife who adores me and I her. Yet  the darkness is creeping all around. How long can I keep it away? How long until my battery dies?

Old places

 It’s so very strange taking our grandson places I went to as a teenager with dates and friends and even my family. Life is so very different and not what I expected I guess. It’s wonderful don’t get me wrong just different. Kinda emotional as well I suppose the feeling is known as bitter/sweet. Still alive not as dark as sometimes. 

Marking time

 Am I really just marking time until I die?  Fighting the darkness pretty hard today. 

The darkness

The darkness is creeping I can feel it. And like an old friend I’ll welcome it in like a long lost friend. Embrace it even. It holds my guilt my secrets my soul if I have one. 

The demons

 Stole my sleep last night. But I’m still here. Father husband grandpa. I’ll keep moving forward.   

Big wave

 Like so often happens when I’m alone in the house. The house where I live a different life with Princess. I let a linear thought in and got blasted with a wave of sadness that left me sobbing. I still think about her and the life I would have had if she had lived. And I cry for a future that never happened. 

Hada three way

 Soooo not in the sexual way. We just had a friend over to lift weights with us. But it was motivating and kinda fun. Went out with some different friends last night just dinner and a show but they’re long time friends and it means a lot to keep up with them. I should not own a gun. 

Still about the sleep

 I get one great night and then not much for days. Why?