31 August

 Came home early from Waterloo   Not really my to do there but one ,one mile trail. Nice campground though. Still gots slight cold. 

28 - Labor Day

 Camping in Waterloo S. P. 

Lousy internet service. 

27 August

 Easy trip home. 

Good day. 

Yoga. 

24 August

 Bay City S. P. With Miles. 

Campfire 🔥 

25th bicycle ride walking ice cream campfire. Good day. 

The darkness and nothing are there but not looming as big. 

Beautiful today went into Bay City  good coffee nice weather nice walk  took Miles fishing  saw a snapping turtle  

22 & 23 August

 Just days going by. My darkness has turned to nothingness. Princess made me a yummy birthday cake and that was very nice. Michael came over and that was nice as well.  Mowed lawns and did a pump. 

21 August

 Grandkids are effin weird. 

Trip home was uneventful. 

20 August

 Grandkids day in New Baltimore. Staying 2 nights. 

19 August

 Preparing for travel to New Baltimore. 

Hate and darkness are so very real. 

18 August

 Preparing to mooch-docking in new Baltimore 

Went to old friends last night for dinner  he’s a blowhard Asshole but aren’t we all at some point. His wife is very sweet. The brats didn’t give me the 💩s like they used to  

I still hate myself but maybe a li’ll bit less today. 

17 August

 Passed the camera at 6:57 am. 

I feel very small and hate myself very much. 

The goal post continues to move. I’m never going to be thin enough look good without a shirt on or treat her good enough for her to be satisfied. Everything just never seems good enough. Probably all in my head but at least I haven’t blown it off yet. 

Pump Pb&j smoothly after. 

16 August

 The dark has grabbed me hard this time I’m trying to find the switch but I can’t seem to. I helped the princess wash the house and drove her to market but I’m in a dark place and hate myself very much right now. 

Saw the Goodyear blimp today. 

15 August

 Colonoscopy went well. Now I’m getting pictures taken with an internal camera. Feel like shit. 

Yelled at wife because she can’t follow instructions. She’s really good at turning it back around on me. No

Marriage ending but why won’t b people just follow straight forward directions. 

“Leave it right there” and they’ll still push it forward more. Don’t complicate it just do it. Fucks sake. 

14 August

 Preparing for colonoscopy 

12 August

 Grandkids day. I’ll let you know if anything exciting happens. 

11 August

 Not much really. Pump. 

It’s hot but I’ve no jobs so I’m just chilling in the house. 

10 August

 Kayaking up the Clinton from dodge park. Nice hot but nice. Went to Marty’s wife’s memorial. Sad and very hot. Good cookies. 

9 August

 Feeling so much better  

Farmers market 

Found a dog wandering out street  turned him in t the Oakland county shelter. It’s a  shame nice dog.  

Washed Caroline  

8 August

 Shingles vaccine put my out of commission for the entire day. 

7 August

 Dr appt Bo is okay and I got a shingles shot 

Pump. 

6 August

 On this day I will marry my best friend. The one I laugh with live for, love. That was the first thing we hung in our new home 37 years ago. So many memories so many changes. I’m still here moving forward 

5 August

 Grandkids day. Good day.