just goin along doing things as they come up not thinking bout much or doin much just existing.
INSANE BASTARD

had to help put a dog down

was at the gf house last night not doin much but we did play with the dogs her middle dog just loves fitch and would play for hours if her old bones and joints would let her. she was doing poorly for a while but a while ago the gf put her a new med and lo and behold she can run jump stand on her hind legs ect. cut back to last night. i made dinner and we ate. while she was cleaning up dishes she asked me to feed the dogs 630 ish. step ove a tired dog (not an unusual occurance) to go to the garage to put the food out for them call the middle dog no responce. go and check and she has deficated where she lay and is having a seizure. labored breathing and very fast heart rate. off the the emergency vet. 15 min car ride i carried her in flurry of activity and 15 min later the vet said she was aresting (heart failur) and they put her down. she was running and playing just an hour before. vet said some sort of internal hemorage caused vasogenik shock and she was just gone. we stayed and pet her and cryed till she was getting cold. settled up the bill and went home. 930 was just gona hug and cry some more and be on my way but the gf wanted a shower. so showered and hugging bed crying a little bit just holding her trying to be supportive. next thing i know she has her mouth locked around me cock and is f#cking the shit outa me. i keep thinking what the fuck is wrong with you! your dog just died ssudenly and all you wana do is fuck. all i can think is it was some way to put it all out of her mind for a while i guess. the alternative is she really is a sick twisted bitch.

i dont have a dog for all the reasons i went through last night. no mater how good of care you take with them they die and it hurts and it hurts and it hurts. i didnt want that i hate feeling but after 10 years ive come to love her dogs more than i thought....

rode back to my house in the pouring rain put my leathers to dry got in a hot shower made a sandwitch told the wife a lie or 2 and went to sleep.

TIRED INSANE BASTARD

colds and such

still climbing out of this cold cough and mucus in the morning and stuff but feeling lots better. got a flu shot friday. dont know y but it really hit me that if i did croak the boys would miss out on a lot of father son things like the other day i took the oldest out on the main roads on a motorcycle for the first time. i asked him how he liked it and his reply "aaaawsomeeee" no he does have a lot of drama in him but i think he really did have a good time.

weekend did the refresher thing so i can do my vounenteer thing again this year took up most of the weekend. saturday when we were back at the gf house of courst we showered and did the nasty and had dinner before i was going to leave i got a little twichy and worked it into a full hardon so not to waste it i poked her again layed on top of her kind of laydown doggy style could barley get my dick in her for her big ass but as it giggled and such i reached round and grabed her tits and wow busted a nut in about 30 seconds. recovered a bit and got the hell outa there. got back to my house and got ready for bed kinda quick as it was almost 10 the wife comes in locks the dore and shakes her ass for me alittlebit and bang did her the same way. tossed her off by hand after she likes it that way .

3 gasims with 2 women in less than 6 hours. not proud of it just sick to my stomach at what a
INSANE BASTARD i am