did the gf on friday after walking her dogs to the phone store to get my phome reset.
gave the wife a masage on saturday oiled her up and made her cum then shot all over back porn style she can be ver sexy when she wants to be.
went to voulenteer with the gf till 11pm and was too tired to do her so hug and gotthefuckouta there
church and back with the gf later in the day made her dinner and f her then slept like the dead

yesterday the wife came in and wispered in my ear "need you" i was cooking dinner and we took care of all the gettin home stuff with the kids and while dinner was simmering off we went to the bedroom and did the nasty. i let her sleep after and then got up to finish dinner and get it on the table. she was so wet durring the day she had to put a pad on to soak up the juces.
what the fuck have i got that makes women get wet over me.
ive gone out of my way to mention my wife at my voulenteer gig to the new canidate as i do not need another brokem marriage on my concious. or another gf for that matter.
after dinner sent the wife to church while the boys and i played vids and cleaned up.

INSANE BASTARD
o back to the gf tonight cant figure out why but i will. prolly eat and f her as well

goin instane

wana drink so fucking bad i can actually taste it.
rode the bike back to my house last friday -3 temp wasent cold had all the right gear
no sking with the fam too cold and the wife is still getting over her cold.
think she is goin to church tonight
effed the gf last night after gettin new phone and goin t lows for shelf.
hate myself
drove truck t day

INSANE BASTARD

whats wrong with me

what indeed is fucking wrong with me. i am getting flirty emails from a candidate at my volunteer gig daily just like when i started with the gf. not replying this time tho. and im going to keep my distance on monday. the last thing i need is another girlfriend. fucked up in the head is what i am for even talking to her

rode the bike to work almost got creamed when a truck ran a red light this morn. even a coworker saw it and asked who that was . idk didnt miss me by much so there is hope yet ill get offed before spring

INSANE BASTARD

drinking dreams

im having more and more drinking dreams latelywonder if i getting closer and closer to drinking. if i am i want to get it overwith soon and just get it done with.

no bike today too much snow. if i really do want to die that way why do i not ride when it really is unsafe?
INSANE BASTARD

didnt ride today tired and not thinking straight this morn
listen to table away over and over
die you fucking cheating lousy
INSANE BASTARD

the weekend

brother came over for the weekend took his niece and nephew skiing
the wife came out for the first time this year ske did well and did not fall
did the gf last night
still hate myself for not doing something about my situation anything
INSANE BASTARD

bad dreams

woke up last night screeming scared the fuck outa the wife. i think i was dreaming about killing people and animals. can u guess witch ones?

INSANE BASTARD

flat tire

got a flat tire yesterday on the bike got a ride to my house with a co worker towed it back to my gariage and fixed it but too snowy to ride today.

brother comming in this weekend takin his kids skiing.

went grocery shopping with the wife last night. you would have thought i was taking her on a holliday she was so happy. i think it just makes her more in love with me and i hate myself more and more each day.

gota pick up the boy today and take him to church for confermation lessions.

STILL INSANE BASTARD